Another Job: Should I give it a shot?

Aaaahhhhhh!!!

I had a ‘nightmare’ on October 23rd! A ‘frightening’ call from Pejabat Pelajaran Daerah (PPD), Kuala Terengganu branch REALLY GOT ME UP last Sunday. The PPD rep informed that my application for Guru KGSK was successfully approved and I was required to come to the office ASAP to collect my appointment letter. He said, “Your teaching duty will be starting tomorrow morning. Congratulations!”

OH MY GOD!

Ironically, the good news was in fact bad news for me. I didn’t even feel thrilled as I was supposed to be. To be honest… I wasn’t fascinated to accept it. It’s all because I had already made up my mind, just wanted to keep staying at home for the rest of this year, may I? Urgh! Please stop whining Khairul Anuar.

Well… I think I’ve worked enough, haven’t I?

1^st – English Relief Tutor at a tutorial centre

2^nd – Front Office Assistant a.k.a Receptionist at a 3-star hotel, and

3^rd – a Sales Assistant at a sundry shop.

This didn’t cause me to reject the offer, nonetheless. I had to say ‘OK’. No choice, actually. Hmm… more fascinatingly, this simply means I’ve got the chance to be a relief teacher twice. Wait! A chance? Come on, this isn’t a chance for me. But why? Erm… doesn’t matter. I’m gonna tell you soon. Just keep reading!

The previous school I taught was Sek. Keb. Pulau Bahagia in Manir and presently at Sek. Keb. Seri Budiman – a primary school I had never dreamt of teaching in my life, ever!

On the first day I stepped into the school compound, I walked as usual {Ala.. baik tak payah cakap}. Not the least bit scared, nervous, anxious or anything. So very confident. School, you know, has been something quite ordinary for me. By the way, according to the Senior Assistant, the school is now lacking of English teachers and sorry, that one I can’t help. It’s kinda good news for primary school teachers-to-be, regrettably I’m only gonna be a secondary school teacher even though she recommended that I apply to be one of the school staff {Sape cakap guru dah cukup kat sekolah bandar?}.

FYI…

I’m taking over Mrs Halina Ibrahim, an English as well as Pendidikan Jasmani dan Kesihatan teacher. She is also a class teacher for Year 3 Takwa – oh my, another bad news for me! Besides teaching English for Year 3 and 2, I’ve to teach PJK for Year 2 as well. I used to teach English for Year 2 previously, so not a big problem. 

However this is the first time I’m teaching English for Year 3. Anyways, no big deal. I can still live with that. Year 3 Takwa, 2 Siddiq and 2 Istiqamah – these are the only classes I’m teaching at the school. Year 3 is a bit fine for me whilst Year 2 Siddiq is the first class. Oh, I’m really very lucky. Nevertheless, Year 2 Istiqamah is, so sad to say, the most terrible class. I mean the last one. In other words, the methodology I need to utilize is sure distinct for both classes. Alright, scratch that!

Just like most schools in the country, the school mistress usually monopolizes the staff room. Do I care? Seriously NAY! The number of school masters if I’m not mistaken is no more than 15. No teachers as young as me there whom I can speak to. Hence, my communication turns a little bit limited and the interaction seems like no more than between a son and parents. What a life! I’m unable to converse with them that much and our topics are more into school matters or something like that. You know that.

What’s the school like for me?

So far, I so dislike going to the school. Neither has the reason got something to do with the school environment, for sure, nor the teachers or pupils. I’m just not prepared. That’s all. I intended to spend much more time at home. At least, it could make me feel more comfortable than being at the school, really.

I realize the school days for this year are only few weeks off. The pupils will be sitting their Final Year exams next week. Whoopee! After that, I will feel dizzy no more. No need to think about daily lesson plans and teaching methodologies anymore. Ah, so nice! 

YET… STILL…

No more teaching is gonna take place doesn’t mean I’ll be idling away. Definitely, not really! I’m good only if had I to mark pupils’ English and PJK exam papers, but the worst thing is I’m a class teacher too. Shoot! I’m gonna deal with anything related to Year 3 Takwa pupils’ marks, textbooks to be returned, etc. Urgh! I loathe this so much! I wished I could escape, you know.

I’m not such a great motivator like Dr Fadilah Kamsah on TV, but I do motivate myself sometimes, “Why not give it a shot and it’s likely to be something better to do. Trust me.” Think positive! Ya, I know I never had experience as a class teacher, hope this might be such a golden opportunity for me to get learning and exploring. Hope so.

The class teacher is the busiest annually especially at the end of year, to my mind. Hey, maybe it’s merely my ridiculous assumption.

But… what if this position will burden me too much soon?

Cos it seems it really does.

Oh, no way!

Do wish me luck, guys.

Just like a LOSER

Indeed, time flies. It’s unbelievable that I’ve stayed at home for about 2 months. People out there will tease me for failing to spend the couple of months wisely. Reflecting myself, I can see it’s really an unforgivable waste of time. I was accustomed to waking up very late in the morning. Shame on me! I was damn pathetic for teaching myself to have a very dreadful daily routine. Having meals, drinking, going online, getting a rest – these were what I kept in mind at all times. I’m telling you, this is really a bad habit which isn’t supposed to be utilized by a bachelor like me!

By the way, I didn’t let the time go as wasteful as you might be thinking about. Ya, I did read books and do some revision. What revision? I know if you expect only do studying people typically do such thing, I recommend that you think again because it’s totally unacceptable. What’s so funny that even studying people like some of Uni students and school children reluctantly take a book and read. Talking about school children, there’re undeniably a lot of students who don’t get their homework finished on time. Sounds odder whether they spend more time reading books or something.

The process of learning or it’s more precisely called ‘education’ can take place everywhere and anytime. Doesn’t have to take place only at schools and higher educational institutions. Also, doesn’t have to be experienced only by many school children as well as varsity students. Putting multiple effort truly matters and vocabulary must be often ‘updated’ too. Even though the mastery of grammar is good enough, there’s still no point if your vocabulary is less. Both are, in fact, inter-connected and are two crucial elements.     

I’m keen on reading books whose contents are inspiring and inquiring. Yep, promise I’ll do it soon. I know there’s a large bookshelf of a variety of books near my room door. Completely useless whether I’ve never touched one. Humans themselves are to seek for knowledge and everybody knows that. 

 

Time is money. One of English proverbs which is always stuck in my mind. It’s true that I’ve wasted plenty of time all this while. Choosing to work at a 3-star hotel previously was a very good decision. Nevertheless, got to confess and surrender that it didn’t even suit my soul. That’s why I must be thinking of something from now on. I too envy since many friends of mine are so good in managing their ‘leisure’ time while I’m not. One of them is attending a sewing class. Wow, that’s cool! Another is working as a salesgirl somewhere and so are the rest.

Can’t just let the time elapse like an empty can! Must be doing something! My desire to get to work is still full of enthusiasm! Yeah, I still wanna work. But not a job that puts me under pressure all the time just like before. I’m on my way, considering and negotiating. I understand that ‘the early bird catches the worm’. I’d much rather become the early bird than a loser.

A few weeks back, my effort of delivering the forms of GSTT and KAFA appears no reply. I’d given myself the chance if I would be called. The month of July will be ending soon. I can’t wait for it any longer and an urgent step must be taken. I’ve determined to work at a bakery. Gotta sacrifice a bit although I’ll spend more time working. That’s a lot better, at least.

Furthermore, the fasting month is just around the corner. The circumstance will grow even worse so long as I’ve done nothing yet. I can never remain jobless! Other people have got their first monthly income and me nothing! Admitting how idle I’ve become, of course, if possible, I wanna stay at home as long as possible. In the past, the time was slightly limited, didn’t even chance to stay much longer at home and shortly gotta go pack. This is the real time I’ve been looking forward to, staying at home until I feel fed up.  

The truth is it’s not worth staying at home by doing nothing. I’d do something. Get to work! Yes, work! I must really work. Quitting isn’t what I’m after. If not, where on earth I wanna earn money to sustain my convocation day this October? A hotel payment is nearly RM600 for a three-night stay. So, getting to work is what I’m presently thinking!

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